I am a horrible writer!

I am a horrible writer. Writing a short 200 word blog is a challenge for me. Writing in a journal every day would even be challenging for me! I am definitely not a very creative writer, my essays are extremely boring and unoriginal. I've never had much practice writing essays, so maybe that is why I am horrible at it? The longest paper that I've ever had to write was 3 or 4 pages, double-spaced. Even if the essay is extremely informal, for some reason it is still hard for me to come up with something to write. I put off my essays until the last minute, and then I just throw all of my random ideas together and hope that I get a mediocre grade. I don't enjoy writing one bit, and English was definitely my worst class in high school. It's difficult for me to work hard at something that I can't stand to do.
This doesn't necessarily mean that I don't enjoy reading! But writing is defnitely a talent that I will never have, so it amazes me how good some writers are. In the summer, I usually read a book every week, sometimes more. Going to the library is a treat for me some days. I like all kinds of modern novels, and I sometimes even enjoy reading medical textbooks for fun. I am not a very fast reader, but I do enjoy it.
I'm planning on getting all of my future papers for college peer-edited by the english tutors they have here at MSU. I hope that will help to improve my essays, and maybe I can enjoy writing them a little bit more. I think I just need to find a strategy and start managing my time when I am forced to write. Maybe if I quit holding off on a paper untl the last minute, then I would get too stressed out about it. I possibly just need to relax and take it slow. Who knows!